i had gone through the day that i HATE the most...which is my birthday...i have an 'unforgettable' birthday this year..
.which is the one i loves is not with me...everyone know that i can't live without him...n he cant spend my birthday with me and i really sad...even the day before my birthday i had cry whole night.....nothing important than birthday...!!!
for me...those Christmas... anniversary....all is unnecessary....but BIRTHDAY is the must...
i told him that i will never spend my birthday with him anymore...
for my dear friend, i bet they know this is the 1st year i spend my birthday with him...
but at the end...i got nothing special on that day ..
i expect he'll give me a surprise...but end up with nothing....
i never felt so so so sad that day...
for past 2years i got my house-mates and my classmates with me....
but not for this year...
until now im still can fell the pain....
i saw many friends or bloggers can enjoy their big day with their closest...but for me...i end up my big day with the notes and whole day class..
im envy of that....
but reli thx to my friends at kampar...they celebrate with me...and im so touched....
im always think that did i made a wrong choice for my future...??
should i continue my life here...with this suxx place...with those bad things that continued happen on me...i reli need someone with me all the time...but who's available..?
i miss my ex-housemate which can chat with me even they had morning class on the next day...
i miss the time i cry in-front them, but they'll never stop me from crying....
sometimes when i stress i reli dunoe who should i chat with...
brother thinks that it's very easy to live here...
parents prepared everything for me...
but there's still many thing i nid to settle myself...
those stress cant be explained....
and i noe that only me, myself can solve it...
whatever...Im reli sad on my big day....
i think nobody will have a lame birthday like me....
i swear i'll never celebrate it again..!!
